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Friday, 24 October 2008

Sunday, 05 October 2008

  • to whom it may concern..

    if you feel like the sentences  written below are meant for you..or maybe just some of them..
    so it is then..
    if you think that they arent any of your business..
    want a pretzel??..

    a..please..do tell your mum that i do not have a boyfriend..please do..argh!!..>.<''..
    b..we are just friends..not even a speck or more..so..if you think i'm still so into you..please..get a life..
    c..if i miss you..i'll tell you..do not make assumptions..
    d..when i tell you that i cant think of anyone else and msg you..itz probably cz they're all fast asleep and i was desperate..so..yea..we're still friends..normal ones..just friends..=)..just to make things clear..
    e..do not tell me who i love..or loveD..keep it to yourself..i dont see the need of telling me..>.<''
    f..thank you and i love you just so much!!..=P..
    g..you are such a lousy joker who just makes me laugh..=D..
    h..told you i miss you rite..well..when i saw you on friday..hm..so wanna hug you at that moment..but....
    i..do not tell me what will happen in the future or what you think will happen..ever heard of the song que sara sara??..
    j..i do not want to be the messenger between both of you anymore..'help me tell him that he's a jerk'..'tell her you're not talking to me'..'tell him..'..'tell her..'..SHUT UP!!..
    k..no..i dont love you..
    l..yes..i dont like you..
    m..i dont like you..honestly..i dont..but dont make me hate you..
    n..happiness doesnt come only from that one person..sometimes it comes from many many things!!..hehe..and yea..i'm very happy now..little mad..but i'm still happy..
    o..o well..a msg from you would be nice..muahahaha..
    p..Jesus loves you..=)..never doubt that..
    q..shake hands shake hands..ahaha..
    r..no..i'm not into you..
    s..thanks for nagging..honestly..not being sarcastic..=)..

    *the 'you'..'he'..'her'..'him'..or any others refer to different people..

    ~allyson~..

Friday, 19 September 2008

  • a letter..

    to someone who was borned on the same day..in the same  hospital..ward with me but just a few hours older than me..
    tada..he's daniel..

    see..
    i'm not that bad after all..
    you should be proud of me..
    so..
    i should say thank you??..
    sigh..
    thank you lo..
    see la..
    dunno what else to say edi..
    you la..
    sigh..
    thank you..
    nitez..

    with love..
    allyson..
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    to those who read the 1 i deleted..
    ah..
    well..
    sigh..
    lost of words..
    those who didnt..
    well..
    do re mi fa so la ti do!!..

    ~allyson~

Saturday, 13 September 2008

  • rubbish talk..

    breakfast..
    sis:        so..what are we going to have for dinner tonight?
    allyson: anything la..
    dad:      yala..you two..what are both of you going to have for dinner?
    mum:     ask grandma for dinner as well..actually i also dont feel like going for the wedding dinner tonight..all                 vegetarian food..
    dad:      yala..
    mum:     if we werent so close i wont go..she keeps asking why you all (sis and i) didnt go yesterday..
    sis:        yala..wedding dinner so boring..next time my wedding dinner ar..very simple one..all buffet..so easy..
    allyson: that day rite..i told my friend..next time i'll have garden wedding..she say the guests will be eating             sandwich..so bad..
    mum:     what wedding wedding..
    dad:      so han ga..
    sis:        yala..i wont be surprised if allyson overtake ko ko (bro) and i..need to hang up our trousers then we need              to pass under it..
    allyson: oi..where la..say only ma..7 years difference k..no way la..
    sis:        getting married at 30 is not too late for me..
    allyson: and i would be like 23 years old..
    mum:    30 too old la..and.............
    allyson: (imitating mum's actions) and 23 is too early..haiya ma..23..of course la too early..
    dad:      you are good..but you shouldnt move your wrist..move only fingers..(turning towards mum)..she also                      know what you want to say..same actions also..
    sis:        aiya..make things simple la..daniel not bad what..
    dad:      o..ya hor..his dad bank manager ma..not bad..eh..can consider..
    allyson:  yer..from the very day we were borned..you all talk these kind of stuff..yer..bank manager..so??..uncle                  chiam's money..not daniel's also..
    sis:        daniel not bad ma..
    mum:    (flashing her sinister smile)..
    allyson: aiyer..

    in the car..
    sis:        ma..you know ar..christie and angel (cousins) so dai fong..had so many boyfriends before..but                             christopher (cousin) dont have girlfriend le..
    dad:      yala..his sisters all so dai dam..he shy ma..
    allyson: he so lengzai..aiyo..he very diam only..so lengzai..
    mum:     his sisters know how to find..
    sis:       like nicky (bro) la..dont know how to impress girls..
    dad:      yala yala..and both of you also like christie and angel..so dai dam..
    allyson: where got..yer..
    sis and allyson : i very shy 1 ar!!..
    dad:     both of you ar..

    dinner..
    allyson: so..jie..how's the doctor??..going out with him later??..cannot 1 ar jie..he's married..cannot..
    sis:        i know la..i treat him as friend only..
    allyson: did you ask him the question i asked you to ask?? (do you have any BACHELOR friends??)..
    sis:        got..he say all his friends..all very holy 1..very boring 1..
    allyson: aiyo..
    sis:        today he suddenly call me..say he da bao muachi and fa sang wu for me..
    allyson: er..cannot ar jie..cannot..married edi..
    sis:        i know la..i told him i'm out with friends..true ma..ask him to give to mum instead..he asked me if i'm                     serious..but later i ask him to give his parents la..
    allyson: say yes ma..i love to eat muachi 1 ar..and fa sang wu..so long didnt drink..yer..evil la you..
    sis:        say earlier la..
    allyson: how i know?!

    later..
    allyson: you not going out with him later??..
    sis:        nola..lazy..cancelled it..
    allyson: (speechless)..

    *this of course..is not the exact conversation..simplified version..*

    ~allyson~
  • Currently Listening
    Who Am I?
    By Made Popular By: Casting Crowns
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    hidden emotions..

    am sick lately..
    and now my sis and dad also have running nose and they blame me for that..
    can you believe them?!
    hmph..
    well..
    a number of things happen lately..
    well..
    no comment..
    or..
    as waikit puts it..
    maybe i just gave a commentless comment..
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    hidden emotions..
    i may be laughing my heads off..
    but deep down..
    who knows if my heart is laughing or is it weeping..
    someone told me..
    the louder you laugh..the more you laugh..
    the more dramatically you laugh..
    just show how deep the scars in you are..
    to me..
    well....

    i may be smiling..sweeter as ever..
    but deep down..
    who knows if the mask is going to fall any minute..
    ever heard of a forceful smile..or a fake smile..
    when THAT incident happened..
    someone told me..
    allyson..dont fake that smile of yours..
    the smile just isnt reaching your eyes..

    i may be crying my hearts out..
    during worship or over some things..
    but deep down..
    who knows if i'm crying for joy as i feel the Lord's touch..
    or crying over a sad thing but at the same time leaping for joy as i can express my sadness and need not hold back any longer..
    people used to say..or even in movies..
    cry..just cry it all out..you'll feel better..
    hm..

    i may seem to be patient at times towards some happenings or someone..
    but deep down..
    who knows if hatred is growing..or if i'm going to erupt any minute..
    who knows what's on my mind..
    others used to say..
    those people who seem patient all along..or those with no temper..
    those are the ones whom we should be afraid of as you'll never know when they'll explode everything all together..

    i may be so fascinated by the way one describe someone..
    who knows if jealousy is plating its seed..
    jealousy kills..
    honestly..
    yea..i'm jealous of someone right now..this very moment..
    aint that good eh..in fact..it's bad..
    yea..
    i know..
    that's why i'm trying to kill that tiny plant..
    but who knows??..only less than 5 people know why..who..

    i may be looking at you..
    a couple of times for a couple of minutes..
    who knows if i'm figuring things bout you..good or bad..
    definitely..i'm not flirting with you..
    or as jonan puts it..
    ' I might glance at u 2 or 3 times. It COULD mean that u look good. Doesn't mean that i like u.'
    you'll just never know what's on my mind..do you..

    i may act like nothing happened although something did happen..
    deep down..
    who knows if i'm over it..
    after THAT incident..
    people keep asking me..
    how can you laugh at this kind of time..
    how can you act like nothing happened??..
    how can you even joke around now?!..
    how can you even laugh and smile after getting that news..
    but..
    who knows if i locked myself in the room since..crying..
    who knows if i'm relieved that it happened..
    who knows if the hurt is just too much to bear that i'm trying very hard to push everything to the very corner of my mind..
    who knows what i'm going through..or how i feel..

    i may be sniffing often..
    who knows..
    if i got a flu..or it's just an act to cover my emotions..

    i may be yawning or rubbing my eyes..
    who knows..
    if it's just an excuse for me to let my tear flow..

    i may be concentrating on my work..
    who knows..
    if i just want people to leave me alone..and stop asking me questions..

    i may be sleeping..
    who knows..
    if i'm just keeping my eyes shut..

    i may be singing my heart out..
    who knows..
    if i'm bleeding or numb inside..

    only God knows what's going on in me..only He knows my pain..those deep within..
    only God knows where i'm going..
    and i thank God for that..

    things just arent what they seem..are they..
    because..the truth is hidden by emotions..

    now..
    this song speaks to me..

    Who Am i
    Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
    Would care to know my name
    Would care to feel my hurt
    Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
    Would choose to light the way
    For my ever wandering heart

    Not because of who I am
    But because of what You've done
    Not because of what I've done
    But because of who You're

    I am a flower quickly fading
    Here today and gone tomorrow
    A wave tossed in the ocean
    A vapor in the wind
    Still You hear me when I'm calling
    Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
    And You've told me who I am
    I am Yours, I am Yours

    Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
    Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
    Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
    Would call out through the rain
    And calm the storm in me

    I am Yours
    Whom shall I fear
    Whom shall I fear
    'Cause I am Yours
    I am Yours

    ~allyson~

Friday, 12 September 2008

  • miscommunication..

    memo from CEO to manager..
    today at 11 o clock there'll be a total eclipse of the sun. this is when the sun disappears behind the moon for 2 minutes. as this is something that cannot be seen everyday, time will be allowed for employees to view the eclipse in the parking lot. staff should meet in the lot at 10 to 11, when i'll deliver a short speech introducing the eclipse, and giving some background information. safety goggles will be made available at a small cost.

    memo from manager to department head..
    today at 10 to 11, all staff should meet in the car park. this will be followed by a total eclipse of the sun, which will appear for 2 minutes. for a moderate cost, this will be made safe with goggles. the CEO will deliver a short speech beforehand to give us all some information. this is not something that can be seen everyday.

    memo from department head to head floor..
    the CEO will today deliver a short speech to make the sun disappear for 2 minutes in the form of an eclipse. this is something that cannot be seen everyday, so staff will meet int he car park at 10 or 11. this will be safe, if you pay a moderate cost.

    memo from head floor to supervisor..
    10 or 11 staff are to go to the car park, where the CEO will eclipse the sun for 2 minutes. this doesn't happen everyday. it will be safe, as usual it will cost you.

    memo from supervisor to staff..
    some staff will go to the car park to see the CEO disappear. it is a pity this doesn't happen everyday.


Sunday, 07 September 2008

  • yesterday..today..

    yesterday..
    went polo ground with parents in the morning..
    dimsum for breakfast..
    did homework..
    sleep..
    went dan's house..
    parents planned for hols vacation..
    going on cruise!!..
    provided if there's still space..
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    today..
    went church..
    message on worship..
    went matta fair or something..
    then went for movie with chien and her dad..
    hm..
    the movie was..
    well..
    made me think bout lots of stuff and do not know why..
    mainly bout that person..
    argh..
    lousy..

    ~allyson~

Friday, 05 September 2008

  • Currently Listening
    For This Cause : Hillsong Live Worship
    By Darlene Zschech
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    farewell..

    today..
    is just GREAT..
    at least i think so..
    =)..
    haha..
    well..
    farewell for the form 5s..
    hm..
    well..
    pizza..( 6 regular ones..)..
    drinks ( 4 big ones..)..
    american cheese cake.. ( 1 kg..)..
    all those for 13 people..
    awesome much?..
    =D..
    we bought bibles for non-christian seniors and keychains for christian ones..
    haha..
    i was running all about just to get things right..
    sweating like mad..
    sigh..
    i was glad it was great..
    everything was great..
    fellowship..the sharing part and others..
    =)..
    PRAISE GOD FOR EVERYTHING!!..
    somehow i'm just so happy..
    though our members are not THAT  many..
    but..
    what made me glad was that they shared that..
    -no matter how frustrated or busy their day was..when they come for cf..they feel great..everything seem perfect then and they just feel so comfortable..they feel so at home and the warmth is just indescribable..
    another 1 said that..
    -when everything seemed so bad..so bad and she was very confused or something like that..during worship time..she can just feel that all of them were lifted up..she really feel that everything was great then..it's not once..but every time during worship was the time she just felt that all her burdens were gone..
    =)..
    those..are shared by our non-christian seniors..
    yea..you hear me..or in this case..read me??..
    they're NON-CHRISTIANS..
    PRAISE THE LORD!!..
    =D..
    it's such great encouragement..
    i never knew they felt this way..
    to me..
    everything was like..urgh..
    i dunno..
    but..
    i'm just so glad..
    =D..
    number of members just aint a factor..
    they told us that they feel so welcomed and just like a family..
    though sometimes we dont get along..sometimes we just cant stand each other..
    but..
    we love each other??..
    at least i do..
    =)..
    o ya..
    and someone commented that i am too childish..must be mature a little bit..
    well..
    fine fine..
    at least i make people laugh by not making a fool out of myself that is..
    hmph!!..
    we took quite some pics but they're not with me..gonna upload some other time..
    =D..
    and it's kho yan yee's birthday this coming sunday..
    i didnt know that till today..
    so we treated the cake as a birthday cake with a candle without even bother to light it up..
    we had an imaginary flame there..
    and surprised her with that cz she didnt see it coming!!..
    haha..
    though it was only an hour..
    but..
    it was an awesome one hour!!..
    =D..
    was and am happy..
    haha..
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    read a news today..
    though it's totally none of my business..
    or is it still??..
    i cried..
    sigh..
    was it worth my tears i wonder..
    was it tears of pity..or tears out of love..or was it..i dunno..definitely not joy..
    no..
    not joy..
    hm..
    i wonder why..
    keep smiling is all i can say..
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    today is indeed a beautiful..fine day..
    thank God for everything..
    =)..

    ~allyson~

Monday, 01 September 2008

  • tears..

    can anybody help me to end my misery by ending my life or something?!..
    i cant stand it anymore!!..
    i mean..
    argh!!..
    when boredom start to invade the mind..its shadow of silly thoughts just follow behind and mixing with the problems one is facing..
    boom!!..
    argh!!..
    where are YOU now?!..
    so desperately need you..
    desperately need your shoulder and there you are..standing on the opposite side of the busy road..
    argh!!..
    i do not want to waste any tears anymore!!..
    argh!!..
    can i just leave everything behind and go to some place where nobody knows me and never will?..
    you just left at the very wrong time..so wrong..
    you..him..boredom..lousy people..duties..responsibilities..expectations..misery..frustrations..thoughts..school stuff..stuff..
    argh!!..
    come on!!..
    i am not perfect!!..
    argh!!..
    help me..
    tears just cant solve the problems..
    it tend to make things worse..

    ~allyson~

Sunday, 31 August 2008

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